i realised.
my feelings for this guy is different from the others. i don reli care wat he thinks about me.
I can act natural around him.. i think? ++ the feeling is just different,. you know? it might even be unconditional. :O wow. haha~ but ah well. i'm still too young to say that. haha! & this may not be equivalent to family love & God love. so its still nt that major ok. xD

Anyway, School is depressin me. Nothing is exciting anymore. not even this lifegame after party tat everyone i know is going. is something wrong with me? Or its just that i am growing up? i eli dono. I feel confused. Shud i go? Shud i not go? But i folow my heart. i don wanna go & i'm not gonna force myself to go. x) agree? Bcoz i do. xD

Having friends is one thing. having friends that befriend you bcoz of somthing is another thing? Is this thing becoming my life? Living in a shadows of others? I hope not. i want people 2 befriend me for me. Not for the sake of knowing someone else. Its crappy.