WHY why WHY

That is my title of my 'vow' to be one of the longest post due to the lacking of post in here. :X

now,

To begin, I wud like to say sorry to all my readers that i have been a very bad blogger these few months. I just read thru & i see, 'boredom' & pics (of course). SO i'm going to try to put a STOP to that trash. xD. Wow. That is really rude to my blog post. SORRYY~ heh. well. i hope this blog will COME BACK TO LIFE. - quote scott -quote NATM2.

You might be wondering whaat have been up to the past few months i haven't been around.

A. A class stress

B. Boring days at school

C. Competition practices

D. Damaged brain cells from studying

E. Everything falling apart

But everything is somewhat on hold for now. Because as you all schooling students out there know, Its the HOLIDAYS. Times for having fun and pushing all school related problems to the side, just for two weeks. Then after that, its down to business again. Anyway! Less of the negative and more of a positive. I have a special request inspiration from my dear Godbrother Scott, to tell you readers how we surprised him in his house on 06.06.09.

It started off like this, I randomly sent a 'bubble' joke to syn yi for fun. (It was lame btw, but the voice was funneh xD) so we started planning wht we were gonna do when she came back to Miri. 1 of the ideas we had was, lets surprise scott on his birthday at his house. & that was exactly what we did. x) We actually wanted to have this, AMPS coming back TO HAUNT scott thing. but it didn't turn out as that as Premjit sadly cudn't attend it. Ah well. She was saving her ticket out to da dinner. ok now enuf of this blabber talk. xD its actually a time passing thing while i wait for scott to send me the pics.~ now here.

We arrived at scott's home at about.. 10.28. I know bcoz i called scott's mum precisely that time.xD We stood there for about 5 mins debating whether we shud go in or not.. but THEY decided against it. AFTER i stepped into de room. LOL. silly ppl.

GOING HIGH~!

I LOVE MY FAMILY

my life::

is utterly boring at this point of time. NOTHING strikes me now. My mummy said its maturity.. is it true? I really don't know. But all i know that its either this world is too stressing or too boring nowadays.. zzz. but enuf with this kinda talk. BLEH~ i was gonna talk about my day in drama. but i CANT! confidential. GAHH!~
.. but thts de only thing i have so far.! oh! i had a family bbq last night.. with only my small family. my dad, mum, me, brothers. thts all..

sigh. it was fun.. bcoz its been ages since we had a proper family thing. we had a proper bbq. den watched a movie. at home~ it was lovely. x) If you readers think about it. how loong was it since you had a proper family thing. i mean. Like purposely spending time with your whole family. this doesnt include every night dinners.. I find it priceless, times like this i mean.

I LOVE MY FAMILY

i realised.
my feelings for this guy is different from the others. i don reli care wat he thinks about me.
I can act natural around him.. i think? ++ the feeling is just different,. you know? it might even be unconditional. :O wow. haha~ but ah well. i'm still too young to say that. haha! & this may not be equivalent to family love & God love. so its still nt that major ok. xD

Anyway, School is depressin me. Nothing is exciting anymore. not even this lifegame after party tat everyone i know is going. is something wrong with me? Or its just that i am growing up? i eli dono. I feel confused. Shud i go? Shud i not go? But i folow my heart. i don wanna go & i'm not gonna force myself to go. x) agree? Bcoz i do. xD

Having friends is one thing. having friends that befriend you bcoz of somthing is another thing? Is this thing becoming my life? Living in a shadows of others? I hope not. i want people 2 befriend me for me. Not for the sake of knowing someone else. Its crappy.

helping a friend in need,
is true friend indeed.

omg. thats pretty lame. LOL. This day has been a pretty relaxing day! Which is very rare at this area. kaka~:D At this moment, i'm multi-tasking ALOT of things. hoho! hmmm.. i'm blogging, chatting to premijt, typing out the script, &&& mapling. whoo!~ seems impossible.

But nothing is impossible,
for Alyssa Possible.

Anyway! what made my day so relaxing is because of the ULTRA-easy maths test today. x) i hope i get 100.. i mean its only mathematical reasoning. but as they say;

Things are easy looking from the outside,
but on the inside,
Its a tough nut to crack.